I can't handle it again...
I can't let go... but I wanna... but I feel so jealous and that jealousy is turning into hatred for both involved. My super-analytical mind says it's so obvious how to let go, and my super-emotional heart can't figure out how to let go, to the point that it's stopping the brain from thinking any other thoughts than how not to let go. Is this where my life is supposed to be going... spiraling downward tonight? My other friend is so fucking naive when it comes to issues like this, that I feel helpless when I'm around her, so I get frustrated at that. I don't know what to do. I keep calling around, but I get machines. I'd rather talk to a real person.And... I should really get a fucking PhD. in Psychiatry to solve my own problems... cause it never seems that anybody has been able to truly pinpoint a true answer, since I'm so picky at arriving at a single, certain, and absolute truth... so help me God.
posted by Erik @ 7:15 PM
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