When The Tides Turn Against You
I feel like shit today. Here's why:1. As I wake up, my neighbors upstairs are having a fight, complete with adult-sized tantrums. My head hurts from last night's headache too.
2. My website www.jamb-inc.com will not process orders correctly due to a glitch with PGP, or it's open-source alternative, GPG. I've contacted my host about this. Then I contacted my client to let them know that I emailed my host for technical help, since he's the one who set up the servers and can help me the most.
3. I just learned my ex is in another relationship with a guy who I thought had another relationship. That shit just makes me jealous and really sad. I suppose she's already over me then. Back to square one. Fuckin A. And I thought that opposites were supposed to attract?
4. Tonight's not looking too good either... the truck shipment will take place in a thunderstorm, and I'll be the only one doing the majority of it for those couple of hours.
5. I just got paid $50. I can't realistically take on another job, since I will be taking two classes in the summer. I expect one of my courses to be about as difficult as one I took in the spring, but it's to fulfill the last of my mathematical requirement, so I have to take it. The "Easy" one, Psychology 1003, Karen told me that Psych can be a hard course to take, with papers and such. However a long time ago I took English, and I got a B+ in it, plus I have this blog which I seem to be doing pretty well in explaining my opinions in detail, so Opinion and Thesis Papers I have confidence in. I also rationaled to her that "The fruit tastes sweeter when having something salty like nuts or cashews to pair it with" meaning if I pair a hard course like Group Theory/Algebra (4350) with something in humanities like beginner's Psych (1003), it can make the Psych seem much easier, and help the stress when it comes time for the midterms on the Algebra. Besides, on an upbeat note, I DID pass both of my spring classes. Barely. So we'll see. I'm just trying to pair up something hard with something easy, to complement each other and finish out my Operation Home Stretch. And I need the easy courses to improve my GPA so I can graduate with a 2.0. Right now I'm at 1.7. My dream is to have a 3.2 Latin. Eventually.
Of course, I'm really good at hiding my feelings from the public (and my parents) because it's none of their business... which always winds up biting me up in the ass when the Stuff-Your-Emotions-In-A-Bottle thing bursts wide open. I try to tell my friends my problems, (while listening to their problems of course with an open heart and rational mind as best I can), but sometimes it's hard to reach them, and I feel that it's selfish to randomly call them up whenever I feel like it.
So, yeah. Now you know. Peace out.
posted by Erik @ 11:14 AM
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