Igniting Something Or Other
The CSC's motto is "Igniting Faith". Well recently, as I've been spending more time there to hang out, pray, eat dinners after work, and study for my finals, I find myself thinking more and more about fire, and igniting stuff, and just events that happen in our lives. For example last night as I was stuck on a proof for my Group theory math homework, (Let A, B and C be groups, and let alpha, beta and gamma be homomorphisms with γ*α=β. If α is surjective, prove that Ker(γ)=α[ker(β)].), I took a study break and went upstairs to pray in the chapel, whereby I saw a girl sobbing over a breakup. After getting her some tissues to dry her face with, she said that she's been in and out of this relationship for six years, and that he wouldn't help himself with drug problems and mood swings that he's been having. I just wanted to help her so I sat there in the front pew with her for about an hour, trying to ask the right questions to help her digest this. As time went on however I started to realize that all she needed was silence, until she felt comfortable enough to let it out. Definitely, something ignited to bring her here.It was about then that I thought to myself that the CSC is truly a safe place to be, a place where you could trust that your belongings will not be stolen if you go to the bathroom or upstairs to pray for an hour. One could even feel free to bring relationship issues here and deal with them with peace.
Then out of the blue Kali shows up on Yahoo, and I instant message her cause I knew I would regret it if I didn't at least say hi after all these years. This must be an answer to some random prayer that I prayed a while ago about not having any regrets.
And I'm meeting this week with a classmate to study for finals because this garbage keeps boring me. But someday I'm sure I'm destined to like it at least. I'll work to make sure that day comes soon.
1649 STL Time: So I'm listening to a song by Luther Vandross, and start to wonder about if he was himself successful in love with the opposite sex. Wikipedia had this to say:
Personal life
During Vandross's entire career, he was dogged by questions regarding his sexuality. A lifelong bachelor, his name was never romantically linked in the media with women. Although Vandross never explicitly denied being gay, he never publicly acknowledged it either. He generally attempted to steer questioners away from the issue altogether by saying that his busy lifestyle made marriage difficult and indicated that it wasn't what he wanted.[12] After his death, an article in Out magazine had several of Vandross' friends, including gay comedy writer Bruce Vilanch, claiming that Luther was indeed a very unhappily closeted gay man.[13]
Makes me wonder if I need to cross-check with other sources or is this a satisfactory explanation. For now I'll leave it alone, because Smashing Pumpkins is playing now. (I'm listening to XM-Channel 9.)
posted by Erik @ 12:41 PM
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