The Ribbon Idea
I'm having second thoughts about the ribbon idea from yesterday. During my chat with Wendy, it became apparent that I'd need to buy two bands of ribbon, a glue gun, glue sticks for said gun, and maybe even a set of clips and/or fasteners to attach these things to our aprons. I'd get it from Michaels (there's one in North Saint Louis 5 minutes from the airport near Lindbergh, which is the one I'd probably have gone to). I thought about going to the one in O'Fallon, IL yesterday while I was gathering my things, but that would only stir up more emotions that I wouldn't have been able to handle.I'd be spending money that I didn't have, from my Credit Card, again. (Borrowing from the future, as it were.) So that's kind of A Bad Thing, and a reason why I'm thinking about not doing this after all. I don't really want to ask for handouts at work to see who wants a handmade VT ribbon, because it's not a guarantee that everybody will care about this issue as much as I did yesterday. My emotions seem to ride a roller coaster lately. For example, last night around 10, I had to stop working on my PE3 programming assignment about PERL scripting, (http://www.kunstdesigns.com/erik/PE3/), because I was getting too emotional. Boy, lonely nights sure are hard to bear.
I wanted to do the ribbon thing initially because in my mourning from my breakup, I could perhaps sympathize with the VT community and feel closer to them in spirit. So maybe I'll just keep VT in my thoughts as I've been doing since this whole thing started this week.
Gosh, this blog might actually be therapy after all. I hope I'm doing the right thing by publishing my thoughts instead of keeping them bottled in. I hope to God that the people who I've gotten to know over the years can benefit from knowing about me more and what makes me tick, in the name of deepening the friendships that I do have. I also trust God that no hacker or pedophile will come in and randomly harass me someday.
posted by Erik @ 10:56 AM
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